I love Heavy Metal

This is the type of music I like, not pop

Old stuff

Someone asks me to take the camera again. I like photography when I was 12 to 14, I had a manual camera (no electrical parts inside except the light meter),

Nowadays, people took digital pictures with a digital camera, and modify within photoshop. I still prefer using film and manual camera, more fun...

I am also watching an old TVB drama, took in 90s era, it was good, but people think it is too old...

Well.. if it is good, who cares whether it is new or old.

Proves to me that people like catching up new stuff without enjoying the old stuff, not a good thing...

People changing job

The people around me keep changing job, even my new company, people left every week. It only has less than 30 people..

New Pay rise?
Better career?

Well, money is important, but it cannot bring into coffin, so I prefer balance between money and career interest.

海阔天空

我玩結他, 很少人去懂欣賞, 或會有被人嘲笑的感覺
我希望我这一生可以的話, 不羁放纵爱自由
當我玩結他的時候, 我彷彿身邊擁有了一切, 但與世界好像有了隔膜, 起了圍牆


今天我寒夜里看雪飘过
怀著冷却了的心窝飘远方
风雨里追赶
雾里分不清影踪
天空海阔你与我
可会变(谁没在变)

多少次迎著冷眼与嘲笑
从没有放弃过心中的理想
一刹那恍惚
若有所失的感觉
不知不觉已变淡
心里爱(谁明白我)

原谅我这一生不羁放纵爱自由
也会怕有一天会跌倒
被弃了理想谁人都可以
那会怕有一天只你共我

仍然自由自我
永远高唱我歌
走遍千里

只想將結他緊抱訴出辛酸

我又見到我不想見到的事, 很無奈, 很孤獨.

我對愛情己經沒有太大感覺. 身邊漸覺壓力, 但又不想一個人

只好將緊抱結他緊抱訴出辛酸

誰來愛我

Stupid

I think many people treat me as a stupid, teasing me at all times.. Just happen since high school, never stops..

I have my own feeling, sometimes I just want ppl to consider my feeling... I now express my feeling via my guitar.

My Place

現在的感受

一個開始又一個結束, 短短的兩天發生了很多很麻煩的事, 我又要重新找新的flatmate, 一個屬於我的家, 一個很幸福的家, 又要結束了.

以前的家, 沒有家的感覺, 大家各自各.

我發了個夢, 給了我很不安祥的感覺, 想不到真的要發生了, 我無可選擇, 只可見步行步.

這對很多人可能是一件小事, 但我見到了無常的可怕, 一個法師的格言, 面對他, 解決他, 放下他

另外, 我又病了

再另外, 我的租金懷疑被人私吞了, 又要追數,

我現在正在找工作, 真是很忙.

我今年真是很黑, 很多不如意的事發生了

New flatmate

Very bad temper, but got a warm heart,
can cook well, easy going, always keep place clean !!

I have too much bbq in easter long weekend, got cold & flu

舊日的足跡

每一個人都有一個過去, 過去的故鄉, 過去的喜與哀樂
這首作品是描述一個人很久没有回家, 看到每一張臉的不同感受

這首作品是約在1985年寫的, 我很喜歡後段的結他, 很有感情, 我現在正在練習這段結他

New life

I just come back from HK and Japan, many things have been changed

New Home
New flatmate
New glasses
New clothes
New guitar
New face - more handsome now
New TV

New journey

Stress out

I am too tired recently (not physical, but pyschological)
due to

1. Too much work in the office (got 6 hands at a time, and every issue is top priority)
2. Flatmate moving out (no good bye hug)
3. Busted for illegal parking
4. ATO penalty
5. Finding a new place within a short period of time
6. Packing up
7. Not happy about my weakness in personality

I am glad that I can handle most of these things properly, but my emotional just gone crazy. I keep reminding myself, forget about the emotion, just do it, and I have done it, because I don't have a choice...

but just too tired, and I am a man, supposed to be strong. and I was behaving tough already... i just want to escape now and cry... yeah, i am a boy, should not cry

Tonight is the first night I spend time alone, very afraid, very tired, i want her to stay with me.. impossible anymore, but i got a new guy as a new flatmate soon, not bad..

I am exploding now like a bomb.

Admiral

I feel really stressed in my life recently.
1. My perception to myself, a sponge
2. Friend's perception to myself
3. My way of viewing things changes a lot

My biggest lesson in this year is learning how to admire things and people?
1. To admire one person took a long time. As you know, I lived with someone before, I can honestly tell you sometimes the other side do a lot of things that piss you off, but no matter how bad the other side is, I still accept it. I am a sponge, you can squeeze the sponge and it still backs to normal. Why? coze I start to admire..

I won't admire one person when I saw him/her, after some time, I will calm down and start to look at the advantage of this person... this is a very valuable lesson to me, by learning that, i almost rarely angry with anyone

2. I like HK band beyond, not only like, but also admire. Although sometimes i don't like their songs, but i admire their talent and most importantly, the tears behind. When I listen to their song, I don't just listen. If you don't know the background and all the stuff involved, it is just waste of money.

3. Someone said I am immature,i admit to some extent I am, but I also want to say no one is mature unless he/she is god or buddha. I am still finding someone who admires me @ a friend or a partner........ I have to break this door

4. I would like to ask anyone who read this blog HAVE U EVER ADMIRE THE PEOPLE SURROUNDING YOU? if not, start it today... but people will ask "why do i need to admire him/her, then why do you treat him/her as a friend then? call him/her when you are boring, call him/her when you need help"...I can tell you, almost everyone of my friend, i will admire him/her. This should be the way of treating people... If anyone has ever said that I am immature, then at least please do this before saying this to me

Please admire this song, it is about how to appreciate.

合久必分

Beyond, a HK band which I like since I was young
After 22 years, dismiss in 2005

Me, today is a remarkable day for me, i also experience 合久必分 after 9 months. How do you think about 合久必分

I know nothing is permanent, but I really really feel shit

How healthy are you

Click here to check

Check the numbers yourself.. For woman, the number is just a little bit less, don't think you are female and you should be far less than men, it is wrong

Push up for Men in 1 min (Age group)
20-29 30-39 40-49 50-59 60+

Superior
62 52 40 39 28
Excellent
47 39 30 25 23
Good
37 30 24 19 18
Fair
29 24 18 13 10
Poor
22 17 11 9 6
Very poor
13 9 5 3 2

I belong to Fair...I remember when I was 13, i can do 27 push up as well and is already quite strong in the class.. so if I want to swim fast, I have to become stronger

Number of sit-ups in 1 min
Men (Age group)
20 20-29 30-39 40-49 50-59 60+
Superior
62 55 51 47 43 39
Excellent
51 47 43 39 35 30
Good
47 42 39 34 28 22
Fair
41 38 35 29 24 19
Poor
36 33 30 24 19 15
Very Poor
27 27 23 17 12 7

I belonged to Poor. seems that I have to practise more

Body Mass Index
Preparation: Wearing minimal clothing, measure your body weight. Measure your height without shoes.
Procedure: Check for your BMI on this chart or multiply your weight in pounds by 703. (For example, if you weigh 149 pounds, multiply 149 x 703 to get 104,747.)
Multiply your height in inches by your height in inches.
(If you are 65 inches tall, multiply 65 x 65 to get 4,225.)
Divide the first answer by the second answer to get your Body Mass Index. (104,747 divided by 4,225 is 24.8.)
Scoring: Less than 19 Underweight
19 - 25 Normal weight
25 - 29.99 Overweight
30 or higher Obese

I score 20, normal weight

happy new year

My resolution
1. Break 35 seconds in 50M freestyle in swimming, and swim 100M butterfly
2. Find a girl friend
3. Change job and increase 10K more for salary, I am underpaid for now
4. Change my character so that people admire me
5. Become more muscular
6. Continue to study Japanese
7. Get more Microsoft IT Certifications

I listen to a HK band "Beyond" recently, I really love Ka Kui's voice. If he had not died, what would have happened.. He died when I was 13. Compared to today's music in HK, HK music is really full of shit now, in karaoke, almost every song is love song, lack of personal style

I love Beyond's song because
1. Self Composed, self played and self sing
2. Ka Kui's voice
3. Ka Kui can express his own real feeling in his song (Not many people can do this)
4. You can read Ka Kui's personality in his songs (You almost cannot find this in other singers in HK)
5. Songs related to the world, not only love
6. Rock and roll feel

When I was 13, I don't really know how to admire his songs, now, I can see very deep inside his songs

Below is the Beyond's Japanese MV, unfortunately, he died in Japan as well


今の僕は前よりずっと成熟になってきた。グローリアのこと私の記憶を深く残ってしまった、私もその後変わってきた、でも、その先の道どうだろ？遥かなる夢か？

Beyond - 遥かなる夢



遠く 遥かな歌が
たえまなく聞こえてくる
微笑みを讃えるように
ときに優しく強く「Don't be afraid」

思い悩み傷きずつき
眠れない夜もあった
信じあい 肩を支えて
励ましあったあの日「Don't worry friend」

＊終わりのない旅の途中で
振り向けば君がいる
人は皆ひとりきりじゃ
生きてゆけないから

広い大地の上に
寝転んで見あげた空
果てしない銀河の流れ
いつもこの地球つつむ「Don't be afraid」

たとえ街は荒んでいっても
夢をみる力が
※この胸に希望の鐘
明日も鳴らすだろう

また新しい 物語を生きるよ

Another song

臨行 - 郭富城

臨行捨不得你走　臨行捨不得放手　原諒我這刻人退後
臨行不想講太多　臨行只想哼句歌　來念記這刻一起走過
如果開心講你知　如何感激講你知　尋夢去結果成故事
難忘真心的靠倚　難忘刻骨的句子　能令我痛哭只此一次
孤單旅程悠然繼續行　孤單時候念著你　孤單時候默念這個晚上
伴著你　講心事　如何不捨都要走　如何不捨都放手能遇上片刻等於擁有

Every word touches me now

Karaoke Night

Last night, I had karaoke with 10+ people. I was enjoyed. People drunk (not me). Due to strong skin allergy, I cannot touch alcohol anymore or any liquid yeast product..I was punished to drink water as handicap and cannot go to toilet for 2 hours, but my maximum capacity is 2 Liters of water.. and......i try to sniff into the toilet, without success......

but I found it good because I can talk to people that I don't always talk before, and after stress in work, this is a place to relax as well

Swimming again - Hoping to break personal record again

When I was young at 11, I swim a lot, taught and trained by professional...My best stroke are freestyle and breaststroke. I also learn how to dive start beaufully. I was trained for compeition...

However, after my Dad's death, I have stopped training, and 16 years later, which is 27 years old. I vow to train up again. I know I am too old for this training, but I still want to have some personal achivement.

My best lap time for 50M freestyle when I was 13 was 44 seconds..

Now 16 years from now, my lap time recorded yesterday was 38 seconds.. however.. I was not really in optimum condition... If I keep training with 3 months, my lap time will definitely to 35 seconds or below for sure... That is also my personal goal..

From now, I will do cardio and weight training as well

Sick and work

I was sick in these two days, got flu due to sudden change of weather. Normally, I just take sick leave, but if I take sick leave, I cannot finish the work on time and my team will f**k with the client, so I continue to work until to finish off... One team member asked to me do urgent stuff. I told her that I was sick, but she keep begging me, so as a responsible person, I work for her..

Oh God, how come I become so responsible. In the past, I just ignore it, probably I just changed myself without even notice it..

Speaking to my colleage, he told me that his sister is getting married, and he has to work in weekend, and he cannot finish work before certain day, the company may get sued...

My mind was so blank and dizzy, and I forgot to bring my mobile phone from office to home, forgot to bring umbrella before I left, cannot concentrate when talking to client............this is clearly an indication of body of requesting more rest

but every job is the same, especially with accountant, if you are sick, your desk will pile up..........

I have learned another lesson, people are so kind to me when I am sick, especially in the office, and my friends as well... On Buddhist monk said "it is good that you are sick, then you will learn how people take care of you"

皮蛋瘦肉粥

CLICK HERE



I vow to learn this

煮粥用料：瘦肉1块（猪腱肉最好），皮蛋2个（无铅皮蛋，一则健康些，二则石灰味没那么大），姜1块，水足量，油盐适量

要煮出一锅绵香好味的皮蛋咸瘦肉粥，要诀如下：

1，挑米：煮粥用的米最好用东北大米，就是圆圆短短的珍珠米，煮出的粥特别绵软；

2，煮粥的米要预先腌：约半碗米淘洗干净后，要用2汤匙的油、1个半茶匙的盐和少许水（2茶匙）拌匀，腌至少半小时，放心，虽然用了很多油，但是油会在煮粥的过程中挥发，令米绵烂，所以并不油腻的；

3，煮粥的肉要先用沸水煮煮去腥，或腌成咸肉：煮粥用瘦肉或腌的咸瘦肉，不必太考究是猪的哪一块肉，总之要保持一整块肉块不要切开（我一般用大约巴掌大，1－2厘米厚一块猪肉，如果条件许可，用猪腱肉更好味）。如果用瘦肉煮粥，那么要先用沸水把瘦肉略略煮煮，然后洗净；如果喜欢用腌的咸猪肉煮粥，那么要提前一天腌咸猪肉，方法如下：猪肉一块，冲洗干净，抹干，撒2－3茶匙盐，均匀涂抹在肉上，放冰箱下格（就是不会冻成冰的保鲜格）腌12小时或更长时间才可以入味；

4，煮粥的水要充分沸腾才下材料：大汤锅中放很多水，煮沸，才放材料。先下肉块、姜片，火不要关小，肉块到了沸水中，外面的部分遇热而熟硬，封住了里面的肉汁，这样肉煮了粥后也不难吃，然后待水再次沸腾时下腌好的米和一个切碎的皮蛋，而这第一个皮蛋切碎下粥与米同煮，皮蛋会融化，融入粥的味道中。

5，先大火，后小火，火候要足：水沸了，下了材料后，先大火煮20分钟，然后再转小火煮1个半小时，火候足，粥就绵软入味而且容易消化；

6，粥的质感处理：在转小火煮了1个半小时后，把第二个皮蛋也切碎，同时把煮在粥中的瘦肉捞出来，用筷子扒拉，撕成丝丝状，跟第二个皮蛋一起放回粥中，同煮最后半小时，然后关火。第二个皮蛋在关火前半小时加入粥中，半小时可将第二个皮蛋煮得既没石灰味，同时又变软滑，吃粥时也能吃到有皮蛋，而肉因为是水沸时下的，还保持了一定鲜味，撕成丝后放回粥中，特别好吃。

这样煮出来的粥不必下盐，好味，而且下火，容易消化。如果粥有点粘底，请千万不要用勺子扒拉锅底的粘皮，要不粥会有糊味，我们通常会放一个轻的小调羹在锅底与粥同煮，水沸腾过程中，小调羹也被带动，可以防止粥煮粘底。

What is your personality

Someone asks me about the personality thing on one day.

The sample test is Here

This sample test is far from accurate because the full test will take a long time to complete, but it is a good reflection to look upon yourself.

I have learned this thing since I was 19 and I have been really into it. I were unhappy for some reasons when I was 19 and I realised because my ego is not relating to the world properly. I can give you some insights of some personality types. These insights are not copied from anywhere else, it is my own words. Try to find out which out matches you most. There are 9 types of basic personalities, 27 variants. IF you need reference, please click the link at the bottom

Type 4 THE INDIVIDUALIST
- Some people has put themselves in too much imaginations , they try to create their own world. These people, when they are calm and stable, they are very creative and artistics, however, when they have stress or problems, they try to put their imaginations into destructive behavior. For example, in a bad relationship, they will have a lot imagination of how the relationship should be, but the imagainations are not practical and reasonable at all.

Type 2 Helper
- Some people is defending their fear of lonliness and by helping other people (i am this type), their ego can be calmed down by the people they wanna help. (type 2). They try to seek values by going outside instead of seeking inside. When they are calm, they are really helpful and fulfil the unconditional love. When they are stressed, they will ask for return when they help.

Type 8 Challenger
- Some people like to control the others (type 8), I am not familiarse with this type, but these people can be described as bossy sometimes.

Type 9 Peacemaker
- Some people like to stay away from the world (type 9), pissing people off because they are too "peaceful" and ignoring things. Good things are they always stay calm, but on the bad side is that they sometimes ignore the world too much, and give a people of "not going forward" feeling

Type 3 The Archiever
- Some people like to show off their fame (like the whole United States), this is type 3. No need to say, I think everybody understands what USA is behaved, trying to polish their "brand", but deep inside is really shit..but when these people are healthy, they are very productive and pragmatic

Type 1 THE REFORMER
- Some people is rigid about right and wrong and emphasis on standard and procedure (type 1), however, they try to find a decent standard and assume that the standard is correct. Good things are that they are productive and realiable because they follow the procedure. Bad side is that they have problems in accepting the other "non-standard" procedures even though the "non standard procedures" are the best solution.

Type 7 Entertainer
- Some people cannot stay away from excitment, getting bored easily, always find something to do (type 7), in chinese, we called it "3 minute heat up", new things never pass 3 minutes. Commitment is always a problem because their commitment is based on their level of excitment. If their commitment cannot give them excitment anymore, they will just ignore the commitment. (my flamate is this type as well). When they are calm, they give people a "joyful feeling"

Type 6 Loyer
- Some people defend themselves too much, asking for their own space, and they spend enegy in finding themselves what is stable and safe. (type 6). They are loyal to the place or person that can give them a secure environment. They have a very clear line definding what is enemy and friend. They have a fear of other people "invading their territory" (my flamate also is heavy on this type). When these people are calm, they can show their leadership power and always emphasise trust worthly relationship. They will not betray people easily that are close friends... They value people that they trust.

Type 5 Investigator
- Some people is very analytical, type 5. It can be described as problem solver. I am not familiar with this type as well..

Finding out one's personality is a very difficult task. The personality is inherent from birth. The core ego and fear will remain there. However, education, childhood and all other factors after birth can give a transformation to the personality. In order to find out one's personality, I have to distinguish what actions are inherent, and what actions are not. I have to observe how they handle themselves, relationship, friends, family and career. A person keep ignoring things does not mean they are type 9... By observing how they handle their stuff, then you can find out their basic fear that is deep inside in themselves, especially when they are anxious. Anxiety will directly tell the basic fear in most cases..As such, a personality can be determined... I also have to distinguish which one is their "Main" personality. One person always exhibit 9 persaonlities all the time, but sometimes the main personality is "masked" because of education, society and parents. These factors can transform the basic personality so much that it is very hard to determine..These people may have higher awareness of their action in their life.

I have already found out several of my close friends' personality. I can definitely tell you that I "handle" them very different..

Awareness of oneself is a key factor here. Even for me, I am not good in awareness

Reference is HERE

Life back to Normal

After a tense relationship between my flatmate and me, she finally spoke up and we solved a lot of misunderstanding.

This is a valuable lesson for me and her. We both got mistakes and we are both right and we are both wrong.

This also teaches me how she works.. For those who don't know enneagram, it is a very accurate personality guidelines, it helps me a lot, transforming my personality so that I can deal with people easily. It corrects my altitute of how to relate myself to this world

After a long observation, she should belong to
Type Seven 7 - Level 5

I belong to Type 2 - Level 5
I am aware of my weakness, but sometimes just out of control, especially dealing with her (Type 7) person. I now understand how type 7 deals with stress.. It is a very valuable lesson for me.

Anyway, I am not interested in blaming who is right and who is wrong, I am more interested in learn a lesson from the past.. One of my new year resolution is to completely change myself so that people will start to admire me.. This is my commitment, I have already shown this altitute in my job. A complete refreshed Ben

I have finally achieved my new year resolution tonight, I can eat the food she cooked. 100 times thank you

I will go back to Hk this easter and stay in Japan for one week.

Here I want you to listen this song as a present

很愛很愛你

地球上兩個人, 能相遇不容易, 做不成你的情人我仍感激.
如果我退回到好朋友的位置,你也就不再需要為難成這樣子

Flatmate is moving out

After living together for more than half a year, we seperate. I don't like it since I think I lost something important..

I have to be lonely in the house again, not getting used to it at all..

I have tried my best to convince her to stay, but not looking good..

Here is the song that she like, I also like it, I hope after she listens to this song, she can stay


郭富城 - 夢見妳回來



夢見妳回來
作詞：潘源良　作曲：Shinji Tanimura　編曲：黃尚偉

夢見了　忘記了　人海中分開　我耳邊　聽到妳話　妳回來
夢見妳　還愛我　從來無被替代　這世間　充滿美麗的色彩
彷彿知道　情還在　願再一起
不分開　別緊張　別心急　沉睡兩眼　別趕快張開
Dreams come true　妳的香氣又蕩來
就像我　夢魂期待　Dreams come true　重逢　但願就是最愛
夢見妳　尋到妳　誰還想分開　愛過的一切片段　再重來
沒有妳　卻還愛妳　如果不應該　我永遠躲到　夢境內存在
從不知道　情還在　夢裡再次　我等待
別緊張　別心急　矇矓雙眼　要在歡笑裡張開

新年明けましておめでとうございます

今年もよろしく。
I watched fireworks in my friends' place at the top floor of the ceiling, very beautiful.

I have something not worked out recently and really depressed, but anyway, new year new beginning

i am keen to change myself so that the people around me can learn more about me. I have to be strong, too weak so far. Be a strong guy

失敗のは当たり前、成功したのは男まえ。物事は試してみればどうかな？

end of friendship?

Is it the end of friendship between G***** and me?

Written in 2 Jan 2008
- the answer is no, although we have something not worked out, we are still best friends

Christmas Present

I got a solar power phone charger by from boss,, Great



I have no present received from my friends :=(

Merry Christmas