人生は何か起こるか分からないのだ

「人生は何か起こるか分からないのだ。物事と言うものは自分の思う通り進まないだと、どうせい思うよりならないなら、楽しく過ごしなきゃもったいない、この先何か起こるか分からないだ。」あるドラマの台詞、
この言葉何とか私の人生の見方を変わていった。

前にたくさんの事を自分の思うより進みたい、でも、そんなわけないじゃない。毎日走って、たまには飽きると感じる。ちょっと止って、息をついて、自分やりたいことをやって、そして後悔を残してない、若いうちに

だから、楽して、人生の楽しいさを冒険しましょう！

っとは言っても、時々迷った道も遇った、その時、この言葉を自分の忠言になるかいいじゃない。

I have watched a Japanese drama recently. It said human life is hard to predict, if we cannot control what happen next, why don't we spend a good time in our future!!

夢と現実

彼女を私の夢を見た、本当に幸せだった。そんな優しい声が私の耳に伝わった。
でも目が覚めたら、現実の彼女を一瞬に見た、驚いた、私は今夢か現実か自分でもわきまえなかった。
もう少し夢にいたいのに。
多分私の長い間押さえた彼女好きな気持ちを自分の潜意識で爆発してしまった。

I dreamed of her last night, oh dear, is this my subconscious?

諦めるしかない

辛いけど、諦めるしかない, 思った通り
It is tought, but there is no choice but to give up as expected. I like her very much

恐怖を満たされた

私が超怖い、自信がない。負けるのは怖い。
Kさんのこと好き、でもこの先の道はどうなるか？怖い
I am afraid to lose, absolutly lack of confidence. Very afraid. Chasing her is driving me crazy

Moon Cake

My friend in Hong Kong has made me a moon cake and send to me. However, it becomes like this, a fine piece of moon cake. Thank You

すしで食事した

今日はｋさんとふたりきりですしを食べた、うれしい
I am having sushi for lunch today

The power of facebook

I start to play facebook yesterday. I have no idea how come addict to it so much. It only tells me one thing, many people have too much time to spare, and they said they are busy. Doesn't make sense, ah!!!

今日はfacebookに登録した。友達は皆ベンはfacebookあるかと聞かれて、もう煩いだ。やっと今日は時間が少しあるので、facebookに登録した。つまらない人がいっぱいと証明した。

DFO Closed On Thrusday

昨日Gさんと一緒にDFOにいた、でも、いた時もう閉まってた、残念。
私達は近くのレストランで食事をした。ステーキを注文した。medium rare ようにコークした。

でも、ステーキは生過ぎた、medium rare　だから
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G and I went to DFO yesterday and it was closed, we ended up having a steak dinner in Outback Steak House. We ordered medium rare for steak, however, the steak was too rare.

ショックだった

昨夜ショックだった.なんで？見たくない場面がやっぱり目の前に現われた。好きな人は........
今朝は私は気持ち悪かった,悔しかった。

ケッチと言われた。だらか何だ、私の心を返事して、そんなもの誰でも気持ち悪かっただろか？

Am I mean or stingy? To some extent I am....



新しい日本人友達出来るかも、その人の名はかおりです。期待してる。
かおりという名前は、私は七年前、ちょうど好きな人の名前です、でも彼女に断った。彼女の印象はまだ心中で残ってる。

I may meet a new Japanese friend called Kaori. Very happy

誕生日おめでとう

今日は私の誕生日だ。冷蔵庫を壊れちゃった、私のせいで。
お祝いのメッセージをもう次々届いた。
願望を毎年でも同じだ、好きな人と出会う。これはまだ果たしない, 残念ながら、私もう二十七歳です

ｋさんのことどうなるかな？奇跡を作りましょ！！

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今日はAさんと一緒に食事した。話ながら、このブログ読める人がやっと出た、彼女の妹です。
何で私は英語と中国語書いてないなんちゃって？
日本語書いてあったことは私の秘密です、でもその秘密は何とかこそこそと公開したいのです、それこそ面白いです。（ちょっと馬鹿だけど、これは私だ）

もちろんこのブログ読者はほとんど私の香港の友達です。若し私の好きな人がこのブログを解読出来れば、どうなるか、ワクワクだの！！！

ｋさんのこと

今日は私の誕生日パーテーだった。ｋさんも一緒だった。やっぱり彼女を見てどきどきした。いつも通り、私はｋさんがガールフレンドになれるの可能性が高くない。そう、ｋさんのこと好きです。

Gさんの事も私を心から潰された。この傷だらけの道をもう二度と繰り返したなかった。

次のKさんに私の行動はなんですか？

いろいろ

何気なく気がついた。彼女のこと(Gさん)は前よりもっと好きです。もっともっと
私はやけてる、なぜなら、彼女は彼女の彼氏にキスした時、何で私じゃないのか私の頭が思い浮かべた。

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豪州のHUNTER　VALLEY　について
酒を飲んだ、でもちょっとだけだ。ちょっと酔った。嫌な感じ
新しい彼女を出来たかも、でもあれはまた幻か？若し本当になれば、奇跡だ。

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Dさんの口からKさんは私がかわいいと言われた。奇跡だ。そのKさんは私はJさんの家で始めてあった時、その彼女の目が私の心を奪っていたよな感じで、どきどきするだ。多分これはまた幻と思ってる。

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Birthday coming

oh no, i am turning 27.
Reviewing this year. My career has finally be settled. Pay rise has been confirmed by my boss, my biggest birthday present. My Japanese is becoming stronger and stronger. And most importantly, my mum send me a birthday car, very beautiful. Thank you..

I also met my new friend, Gl**ia, She has quite a lot of impact on my life

It was a very long journey to see my friends graduating from Uni, finding their own career, getting married... Oh no....... I am a child anymore, which I don't like !!

Addicted to Driving Game

I have bought a 40 LCD TV... I play computer driving game with it every day. The sensation is awesome... I am really addicted to it.......

I enjoy driving computer games, it is close to real, except you don't have back pain..


The game I am playing is not really a game. It is a simulator. I have to have car set up knowledge. I am not allowed to crash everywhere. I have to brake without ABS..
I am driving in real track !!! I am now driving Macau track. I have watched this track since I was 8 on TV, now I have a chance to drive on it.. so...

have a watched at the following, the first one is the game video, the second one is real time video. Now you know why I get addicted to it, especially with a 40 LCD where everything looks real

She has changed

I cannot never understand what girls are thinking

BIG DAY OUT

My manager agrees to negotiate with my boss about my salary. He agrees to give 15k more..

I have a chance to taste Larry's Tofu cheese cake

Yesterday, our company bought us for a big day out!! it was exciting

We were driving go karting, unfortunately, one of my workmate has an accident, Her car flipped over, which was very unusual in kart racing, with no seat belt, She was thrown out and suffered a minor injury on her month. Very lucky, she is fine..

Then we go cruising, I don't know many people in the company, so it is a bit boring...

At night, we had German good in the Rocks..

Changing job again

With that much of pay, I don't expect to work this much of overtime. On one day, I have to go home at 1100pm. I don't like that. I told my manager that I will be late on Monday to compensate the time difference. He does not like it. We agree to have a meeting on monday.

I will tell him, if you want me to work overtime. Please pay me the market price. With the current price you paid me, which is 15K below the market price. I don't expect to work overtime.

If they don't like it, I will find another job. But this company is a good company, I like the culture, but $$ is really a main concern for me

New Job

Got a new job, not much pay. Let's see what I can learn from this job

Drop down my arrogance

I am too arrogant in my job. That is very bad. I will drop it down so that I don't offend to other people.

Buddhist percept No 4: Don't say something that will harm others

Final Interivew 2 days later

It is a big company, the ideal company that I wanna work.
Mass Media

I passed two technical interviews already. This is the final one, and I will get it

Good Luck Ben

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I was sacked

仕事はくびになちゃった。残念でした、ただの三日間、本当に不謹慎でした。
世の中に　UNFAIR　の事いろいろ
誠実は時々自分にめわくをかけてしまった。でも、私はいつも誠実を信じでる、ずっと。これは私こそだ。

I lost the job, after working for 3 days.
My project manger thought I am incapable.
My manager thought I am ok.

My feeling was
I got a driving license, but you didn't give me a car key and give me an old car, and you complain I am driving slowly.

I had another interview today which pissed me off
The technical director has no technical knowledge and challenge me on technical knowledge.

Bad day, very unhappy, but learned a lesson.

I say thing in a honest way, but that always bring me trouble. I don't wanna lie, it is not my nature to lie. I am not the type of person to tell lie to get the work done, I found it unprofessional. I am honest to many things, but that bring me trouble sometimes.

I am frustrated, I am being treated in this way. However, I still insist my honestly to people.

Getting a Job without interview

面接いらない就職できる事。なんでやねん？


I got a 4 weeks contract, but I did not speak or see the client. I did not even know what is the company name and what I do there, but the job agent put me there.

I only spoke to the agent few times.

THIS IS CRAZY.........Getting a job without interviewing anybody, not even talking in phone. However, they have my resume

Police

First time I have ever been caught by police in traffic. The offense was doing U turn in traffic light. He said the penalty is $360 + 2 points, but I ask him to give me a warning and let me go... oush............ lucky

The meaning of Job

I use to work in an environment where money is enough, but that is work.

Today I talked to my workmate Judy, she advised me that I should work in an environment where I like. Money is not the only factor. I should learn more experience and become more mature..

I have been thinking for this for a few days. I got the skills, why don't I try something that I like, not just getting enough $$ for earn my life.

I am asking myself, what sort of environment do I like. What will I benefit from it.

Although my current job is a small company, but I have learned a lot of things, but seriously, I don't want to stay because I think I am too bored. I want to work in large company.

What is the meaning of my carrer

Really thanks for Judy for teaching me a lot of thing in my current job.

仕事の意味は何だって？いつもこの問題は繰り返す自分に聞いてる。この前に recuritment 会社の試験の結果見ると、僕が十分な能力である。だから、心配でもいられない。就職できるのは時間の問題だ。今の時、自分が何が欲しいか考えるべきの時間だ。
僕は前にお金のために仕事する、本当にいうさ、つまらない。
給料だけの為に仕事をすると、それは意味でもない、ただの虚しきだ。
今は、仕事の意味が探すべきいいチャンスだ。僕はまだ若い、もし仕事もう飽くと感じると、人生はそのまま止まる、それは絶対だめ。

頑張れ、きっと自分の適な道を辿り着く。

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My Pride of Job Hunting

One one day, one agent asked me to do a job skill test. I was annoyed coze I think it was wasting my time. If you are happy with me, just send me to the client. Do not waste my time.

However, I did manage to do it coze if I did't do it, i would have waste a chance. I just do the test really fast and rough. I expect I fail the test with only 20% correct, The test has 45 questions, and is computed base and multiple choice.

However, when the agent called me back after I finished the test,
"you have 90%", she said.
"is that 90% wrong answers", I said
"no, it is 90% correct" she said

I was very suprised. After she found out I scored 90%, she talked to me more polite than before.

Today, I went to see her to ask her about the test. She said most people even senior one working 8 years got 50% from the test. It is very rare to score a 90% mark. I was also suprised myself how good am I in my skill test.

When I read the result of the test of "how fast do I finish the test", guess what, I score 99 out of 100, I almost broke their machine..the test is estimated to finish in 54 minutes, I just spend 20 minutes

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Some agents say to me,
"ben, you have only 4 years of experience, why asking for the same amount of salary compared to a guy working for 8 years"..
I will always say
"Number of years of experience is not important. Quality and speed of work are the most important. I have seen so many people out there wasting time and money and cannot get the thing done"

But many people think Senior is always better than Junior, the skill level of one person is directly proportional to the number of years of experience. I have been interviewed several times being asked for MORON questions. Say, if you are accountant, they will ask 1+1 = ?. Of coze the answer is 2, but it is funny that not many so called professional can answer the question.

However, if some employers admires my skill test, I will get employed straight away. I felt bored about the job coze it is not enough $$ and there is no challenges. I want to find a job more challenging

Gloria made me sick

Living with her just made me sick. I got infected by her today. I felt a little headache. Becasue I drink Manuka Honey regularly, I am not seriously infected. I got no running nose.

I have job interview today, full of Chinese people, cannot find a single westerner. This job requires me to work 6 days a week with overtime pay. It is closed to my place, just 15 minutes drive. I have the result tomorrow, I hope I can get it.

Job Hunting and $$

I am looking for job again. I have asked my Christian friends to pray for me, although I am a Buddhist.
I want to look for contracting because it is good money, but there is not much compared with permanent.

I want job because I want $$, $$ can give me security. Let me share with you how $$ can make me secure..

I remember when I play Sim City 4, and I am a Mayor. For those who don't know what is Sim City 4. It is a computer game about a mayor building a city, and you got $$ via taxes. I always like to get the $$ up to a certain amount, say, $100000, after that, then I lower the tax rate. I don't like making $$ after that amount. That is my secure amount..

So, my secure amount is around AUD 200K, after that, then I use all my excess money to help the society.

What a dream!!!

Old Friend

Today I met one of my uni friend, haven't seen her for 3 years.
She is cute and beautiful.
We were very friendly when we were in university.
She didn't change much, keep spending $$ all the time, leaving no $$ in the bank account
but she has a good job now, working as an auditor.
Her blog is CLICK HERE

That is the thing I bought her about CLICK HERE

I haven't been so happy for a long time.

Joke

I thought I have grown up, but I didn't
I thought I am independent, but I am not
I thought I am strong, but I am not
I thought I am not jealous, but I am
I thought I can give unconditional love, but I cannot
I thought I am ok, but I am not
I thought I understand myself, but I don't
I thought I have found my way, but I have not
I thought I am clever, but I'm not
I thought I am happy, but I'm not

Who am I?

I just want someone to stay with me.

Emotional problem is my ever biggest obstacles in my life to come across. I thought I can override it, but I cannot.

Shit..Shit..Shit..Shit..Shit..Shit..Shit..Shit..Shit..Shit..

Betrayal and trust

やっと目を覚ましました。自分がどんな馬鹿か愚か者かやっと分かった。ひとりの友達に裏切られた、約束を破った彼女は私の心が傷つけてしまって、もう信用できなかった。信用って何だっけ？

女って何者だ？私は永遠に分からなかった。

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I finally woke up yesterday, how come I am so stupid.
I think I was betrayed by one of my friends.She has broke her promise, I won't trust her anymore
What is trust?

what do woman think, i will never understand!