聖誕快樂

我家有了PARTY, 認識了新朋友

心動了

聖誕節, 看到街上的人打扮得美麗, 尤其是女孩子, 心動了, 我好像突然入了花花世界. 也見到我喜歡的女孩子

心淡

有一晚, 我被一個女性朋友用朋友方式繞著我的手, 維持了廿秒. 感覺奇妙, 生疏. 也把我的回憶勾起.只是一件微不足道的事, 我呆了. 為什麼我會心動?我忘記了我還是人界的生物, 是有男女欲.

我是誰, 不知道.



想不起　怎麼會病到不分好歹

　連受苦都甜美　我每日捱著　不睬不理

　但卻捱不死　又去痴纏你

　難道終此一生　都要這麼　不可爭一口氣


☆很謙卑　只不過是我太過愛你

　連自尊都忘記　跌到極麻木　只好相信

　又再爬得起　就會有轉機

　若我不懂憎你　如何離別你　亦怕不會飛☆


＃由這一分鐘開始計起　春風秋雨間

　限我對你以半年時間　慢慢的心淡

　付清　賬單　平靜的對你熱度褪減


　一天一點傷心過　這一百數十晚

　大概也夠我　送我來回地獄又折返人間

　春天分手　秋天會習慣　苦沖開了便淡 ＃


　Repeat ☆ ＃


　（說甚麼再平反）只怕被迫一起更礙眼

　（往後這半年間）只愛自己　雖說不太習慣

　畢竟有限　就當　過關


　Repeat＃

LINQ is devil to DBA

1 DBA has to know what SQL are running in the database. LINQ automatically generates SQL, many LINQ queries are not optimized. programmers can submit SQL to drag down the whole database easily without notifying the DBA.

2 DBA can assign a XML query plan for specific stored procedure, if you study how query plan works, you will know a fine tuned SQL is quite tricky to write. Study the topic of parameter sniffing.

3 Security - Stored procedure has great security

4 In LINQ, schema modifications of the database sometimes need to touch the application code.

Many developers does not agree with me coze they lack DBA knowledge. I am a rare developer with good DBA skills and good .Net skills.

一無所住,也無本心.應無所住,不生其心.

這是<金剛經>上的一句話，意思是以不執著於任何事物的心去面對一切，高興時既不會執著於高興，悲傷時也不會執著於悲傷的心境。

日本有一首詩就是以這句<金剛經>裡最著名的話為題說：[悲哉掠過雲端之初雁，亦有心而啾鳴。] <金剛經>裡說：[求道者及優秀的人必須生出如此清淨心（不指著的心），不生出執著的心，不生出聲、香、味、觸及執著於心的對象的心，正應無所住而生其心]（諸菩薩摩訶薩，應如是生清淨心，不應住生生心，不應住聲、香、味、觸法生心，應無所住而生其心）禪門非常重視[而生其心]這四個字，所以在本經裡又主張[應生無所住心]。所謂住，是指心停止、盤纏或執著在某處。由於住是產生一切迷惑的根本原因，所以才如此諄諄地教誨。

但只是聽或者讀，無法真正的瞭解，除非突破知識的界線，否則定會在某處受牽制。

繼承達摩禪脈的第六代祖師慧能，出生在廣東省某個山村的貧窮人家，既沒有錢也沒有時間讀書做學問，每天以砍柴賣薪維生，奉養老母。某日，他在街上偶然聽到僧侶誦經道：[應無所住而生其心]，心裡深受感動，這名僧侶告訴他這是<金剛經>，並說黃梅山的弘忍禪師（唐代的禪僧，西元六七年歿）正在講述此經，闡釋見性成佛的道理。

此後他就立志出家，卻又擔心老母無人照顧，幸好有位善心人士願意照顧他的母親，於是他放心地前往弘忍那兒，每天為師父舂米，默默地努力修行。最後終於悟到所謂[應無所住而生其心] 是指一切的存在不離本心的道理。

弘忍得知此事後，某夜就把他叫到房裡說明道：[若不識本心，就算學了佛法也沒用，若自己能細心的觀察本心，就可稱為佛心。] 並傳授他禪法。此後這句話受到禪門的重視，道元禪師也曾就這句話吟道：[水鳥去返皆絕跡，然猶不忘記其道。]

文章摘自《在禪思中覺醒》一書

何期自性本自清淨，何期自性本不生滅，何期自性本自具足，何期自性本無動搖，何期自性能生萬法。

What is the feeling of Happiness

Someone asks me whether I am happy, my response is "What is the feeling of being happy?" Especially learning deeply about buddhism, I have a question mark myself. Happiness is not built from sensational stimulus. May be I did not relax enough for the past 28 years.. depress, depress and depress

Homework

1 Sitting up Straight
2 Do sitting meditation daily
3 Focus on chanting and learn sutra
4 Do good merits to others

Back from retreat Insight

I just back from 7 days retreat meditation. Well, lots of stuff to say. Very touching, I have not met Veneurable Guo Juan in retreat for a long time. The retreat was so boring to many people, but how come I find it so valuable?

This was my first ever retreat after I vow myself to reborn in pure land after death. I realised that we all lost our buddha nature, and finding the true buddha nature, ending the suffering is the only way to go.

I am not a particular fan of meditation. I have not meditated for a while. Before I went to meditate. I do not even know what meditation is really about in a very deep level.

Discovery process starts hours after the retreat was closed. After another sitting with my friend Shirley. I can count the breadth, which was out of my expectation. I had heavy leg pain as well, and as the moment I stayed in the breadth, for seconds, the pain was gone. I did not had this experience ever before.

I went home and I found out my place was so messy, a bit troubled to accept it myself. What a suprise.

After discussion, I told Shirley that I have problems in accepting myself, forgiving myself, always ask somebody else to accept myself, the fear to open up the rubbish bin. The lack of confidence in myself in removing the shit out of the bin. Hopelessness causes me to stop looking forward and chose to cover up the bin and escape. This is also part of the reason why I choose to reborn in pure land, ask Amitabha for help, I wanted to give up on this world and ask Amitabha to save me from suffering. However, because I realise the pain was so deep according to the buddha's sutra, I also want to save the others from suffering. With my limited time in this life, it is simply impossible for me to save myself without Amitabha's help.

My pure land practises such as chanting amitabha are still very useful to calm my mind down and do good virtues to others and myself, but it is still not pinpointing enough by the method of observing my breadth and leg pains, which is the main channel to connect myself due to the failure of accepting myself. Meditation is very direct, very brutal while chanting amitabha is more gentle way to get realisation of myself.

Can I accept this brutal force? I hope so, but it certainly helps my pure land practise.

Learning to relax is another art. I thought I have been relaxing, but can you relax in my leg pain? Can you relax when you are feeling sleepy? It is a very big challenge. Relax does not mean sloopy as well. Relax my mind is tough, the funny thing is you cannot use any force to relax your mind.

Because I know where to go after death, practising meditation with no expectation is nothing hard for me. Meditation cannot have expectations, there are no good or bad, but how many of us can really do it. For example, we might know that after meditation, our mind will be more settled. but is it really the case? if our mind cannot be settled after the 7 day retreat, are we disappointed? Experience the experience, very tough, particulary in real life. I cannot even expect I can write this passage after the retreat, or this is just simply another illusion as the Diamond sutra said.

I am a very emotionlly deep person. My personality can actually be found in HERE. Well it is not buddhism, but it is very useful in understanding myself and I can say more than 70% things say there are correct. I am a very emotionally powerful person, a weak person as well. Courage is simple my biggest enemy. I admit that I cannot tolerate painful experience very much, After this few months pure land practise, I am already suprised that I can look into death and study about it, and even not that fear of death, and even in sitting, I realise that my body is pain, my mind is not pain, but how what tolerance level can I up it? I am still not ready for me to play bungy jump, sky diving or even having serious pain in cancer for months. Well, not many people can be up to that tolerance. This is the world of suffering.

What can I expect out of meditation? No. Just sitting and follow the methods. Suprise will come, can I do it, lets wait and see



離開 這一刻感覺不會忘記
朋友 抱擁告別明天各自遠飛
難得 並沒傷感依依不捨顧慮
重拾昨天 樂趣一堆
曾經 每一天相約找美麗去
陶醉 美的故事互相勉勵去追
曾經 望著天空一起哭泣至睡
臨別說起 亦笑相對

#別了依然相信 以後有緣再聚
未曾重遇以前 要珍惜愛自己
在最好時刻分離不要流眼淚
就承諾在某年 某一天某地點 再見

TODAY WHILE THE BLOSSOMS
STILL CLING TO THE VINE
I’LL TASTE YOUR STRAWBERRIES
I’LL DRINK YOUR SWEET WINE
A MILLION TOMORROWS
SHALL ALL PASS AWAY
ARE WE FORGET ALL THE JOY
THAT IS OURS TODAY

Victim in the financial turmoil

I lost my job today

愚痴

我們每個人都是愚痴.
我們只是用我們的愚痴去處世, 去做事, 衡量對與錯, 結果弄了又一大堆愚痴, 爭執都是這樣的.

輪迴

輾轉輪迴千百世，
今生又投入紅塵。
歲月悠悠回首處，
誰能記得是哪人


你不得不信, 我聽了很多真人真事. 我們不要漠視他, 前世討債, 有個人被清朝追到現在, 今生受盡痛苦. 仇恨的可怕.

我們一定要解決這個問題, 唯有念阿彌陀佛去西方世界. 阿彌陀佛是真的, 很多現世人見到, 就一個小孩子也見到, 一個基督徒也見到, 不可不信.. 試問如果你不信因果, 後果嚴重.. 受苦

如果我們再執迷不悟, 繼續攪名聞利養, 今生再作業, ...

一定要脫離輪迴

Buddhism web site

Buddhist web site

正確的佛教臨終助念

我希望我可以這樣往生

問我

問我歡呼聲有幾多　問我悲哭聲有幾多
我如何能夠一一去數清楚
問我點解會高興　究竟點解要苦楚
我笑住回答　講一聲　我係我

無論我有百般對　或者千般錯
全心去承受結果
面對世界一切　那怕會如何
全心保存真的我

問我得失有幾多　其實得失不必清楚
我但求能夠一一去數清楚
願我一生去到終結　無論歷盡幾許風波
我仍然能夠講一聲　我係我

家變

今天家變了

獅子山下

人生中有歡喜 難免亦常有淚
我地大家 在獅子山下相遇上
總算是歡笑多於唏噓
人生不免崎嶇難以絕無掛慮
既是同舟在獅子山下
且共濟 拋棄區分 求共對
放開彼此心中矛盾
理想一起去追同舟人
世相隨 無畏更無懼
同處海角天涯 攜手踏平崎嶇
我地大家
用艱辛努力寫下那不朽香江名句

有聚有散才能成長

俗話說：「天若有情天亦老」，可見愛情、友情、親情雖然能帶給我們很多的溫暖，卻也充滿痛苦的催折，尤其是生離死別時，更是讓人痛苦。因此有人以為，只要將情感斬斷，就再也不會痛苦了!然而如同佛所說，眾生都是「有情」，就是因為眾生有愛的緣故。

眾生最愛的是自己的生命，其次則是和自己生命相關的人、事、物。親情由第一代傳到第二代，象徵了生命的延續。愛情也是一樣，因為有了男女的結合，才有後代的出現，因此這個結合也和自己生命的延續有關。至於友情，雖然和生命的延續並沒有那麼直接的關係，但是人活在世界上，一定需要養分，除了飲食的養分之外，還必須從精神上獲得滋養，而友情就是最好的精神滋養，所以友情和生命還是有關係的。

既然情愛和生命息息相關，無論是否定它，或是硬生生地把它切斷，都不合乎世間的法則，也不合乎人情的道理。從佛法的立場來看，無論是親情、愛情或友情，都是因緣所生，有因有緣才使得大家生活、聚集在一起，也才能夠彼此互相合作。但是我們要明白，因緣聚散是天經地義的，就如我們常常聽人說：「天有不測風雲，人有旦夕禍福」，或是「月有陰晴圓缺，人有悲歡離合」，可見生、死、聚、散都是正常的事。

既然聚散是必然的事實，那就沒有什麼好痛苦的了。佛法常常教人要用平常心來看待所有一切發生的事，這樣在相聚時，就不會太過興奮，而分離時，也不會那麼憂苦。而且，人生在世，就是要有聚有散才能成長、有生有滅才能進步，如果沒有生滅變幻，我們就會老是停留在同一個現象之中，不但覺得很無聊，也不能夠成長。例如，今天和這兩個人在一起，明天又和另外兩個人在一起，這樣就能把原本的人際網絡擴大了，人際網絡一旦擴大，生命的層面就會擴大，而層次也將提高。
所以，聚散的過程其實是讓我們成長的一種力量，因為層次和層面的提高、擴大，使我們的生命過程更充實、更飽滿，也更加多彩多姿，這不是一件很好的事嗎?

更何況，離別既然也在生滅變異之中，所以它也是一種暫時的現象，一時的分離並不表示永遠都不能再見面了。而且今天這個時代，我們可以隨時隨地透過網路聯絡，即使相隔遙遠，也能立刻與對方面對面談話。而人是高等動動，本來就著重精神的交流，就算身體沒有在一起，仍然可以隨時隨地互通有無、互通訊息，離別也就不再顯得那麼痛苦了。

其實，離別之所以讓人感到痛苦，問題的關鍵仍在於大家難免都希望自己喜歡、執著的，能永遠留在自己身旁，這才是使情愛變得痛苦的真正原因。所以，只要轉變自己的心境和看法，以平常心來看待離別，並且掌握聚散離合所帶來的成長契機，就不會再為離別而擔心苦惱了。

From DDM Taiwan Master Sheung Yen

一切有為法，如夢幻泡影，如露亦如電，應作如是觀

50% my own words, 50% copied from somewhere

人是有慾望的，生來就想擁有什麼，當你擁有你會快樂，但失去時你就會痛苦；夢也是一樣啊，當你朝著夢想前進，你是滿足的，但是當有一天夢想破滅，巨大的絕望就會攫住你，不停地往下墜落。
　　可是這四句偈告訴我們，不要去想你現在擁有什麼，便放不開，因為總有一天都是會失去的，也不要去想你失去什麼，因為我們本來就不可能擁有什麼，今天你做了一個夢，夢中的你過的快樂極了，早上你醒來，發現自己又回到現實的世界中，又要面對辛苦的一天，人在夢醒時難免有一點失落感，但這還只是做夢而已，要是有一天你生命中真正重要的東西失去了呢？你的親人、朋友、愛，你還能把他當做一個結束的夢嗎？
　　人生的一切現象，就像夢幻般不真實，也像水中的泡泡，浮上水面就消失了，又像清晨的露珠、天空的閃電，現在看到了，下一刻就消失了。這個世界就好像無數個不同的『片刻』，而不是不變的永恆，我們應該從這個角度去認識世界，就會對世界有不同的體悟，也許本來令你痛苦的事，就不會痛苦了。
　　其實我覺得人活著，就不可能不痛苦，因為活著本身就是一件痛苦的事，人活著總有一天得面對別離，又有太多無可奈何的事. 我很希望我從夢中醒回來, 人生本來就是夢, 你試想想, 你發夢的時侯是否很入夢, 很真, 當你醒來的時候, 你會不會很執著那個夢, 人生如夢, 我們為什麼不能放下

你以為我很長命嗎, 最長也不過是一百矣而, 短的話也只可能是明天. 萬般帶不走, 唯有業隨身, 即使你有錢, 有成就, 死了也是一頭骨頭, 和大地合而為一, 你的自我去了哪裡? 也被活埋了.

你可能活得很辛苦, 你看看其他生命, 比你苦的更多, 你可能以為自殺能了斷, 但老實告訢你, 自殺只是等於沒有肉體, 記憶沒有消失. 每它七天要找替身.

你要心平氣和, 亨受每一刻, 一刻的生也是一刻的滅, 生生滅滅, 一刻過去了不要回頭看. 這才是真正的利用每一刻, 你試過有一刻的平靜嗎? 要看生滅, 很簡單, 看自己的呼吸, 他是陪伴你長大的, 你有看過他嗎, 我們很多時也忽略了他, 一吸一呼, 一個又一個生滅

在這不如意的世會上, 不如意的事很多, 我們盡力去做, 不問結果, 如果結果不是理想的, 放下他, 你要亨受做的過程, 不要以為浪費了時間, 你的身體的確為你努力過, 每一刻的過程也是生滅

Devote time to save the world

Many people are in suffering, no food, no water, especially in Africa. Please help them as much as you can.

人的自性沒有念頭

The following is all my own words and feeling, not copied from somewhere else. I am practising now and find it very useful

人的自性沒有念頭, 不管是惡念還是善念

我真的要從這裏觀察

這幾天心又雜了, 我一真用內觀的方法來了解自己, 要分清自性跟習性, 不要被眼耳口鼻的感覺影響, 最難控制是情, 所有的情都是假的, 正確的情不會用感覺的, 是理性的, 人人平等, 不分男女,動物也不例外的. 因為情帶了執著. 執著是自我控制的一種, 控制的意識是保護自己, 這也是錯的

Very important during death

The ghosts and your enemies will pretend as your family member to bring you to hell, we must ignore them and wait amitabha to come.. So do not follow them or you will be in hell

命终时的亲友 人临终前常看见已故亲友出现 怨亲债主化身亲友接引 堕落三涂. F***

心動

這幾天, 我發覺我的心動了很多, 我一直都用很強的意志力控制, 但有時侯十分痛苦, 為解決問題, 我讀了以下的文章


心不動，還能辦事、解決問題嗎？能，心不動是智慧解決問題；心動是情識在解決問題。這一動就變成識了，情識解決問題會產生很多流弊，為什麼？它是迷，不是覺，智慧解決問題，決定沒有後遺症。佛菩薩是智慧解決問題，我們凡夫是情識解決問題，感情、常識。感情本身就是問題，煩惱嘛；知識是所知障，全是煩惱習氣，沒有真智慧。真智慧是從定中來的，不是讀很多書就有智慧，那就錯了。讀很多書是常識豐富，知識不是智慧，智慧跟讀不讀書沒有關係，

我們真正到離念亡情的時候，情就是情識，念是念頭，一切念頭，善念、惡念、無記念，都捨掉了；情是一切的煩惱，喜、怒、哀、樂、愛、惡、欲，我們中國講的七情，在佛法裡面講識就是情，八個識都是屬於情，情識真正能夠捨離掉了，你本性裡面的般若智慧就現前了。

其實情識跟般若智慧是同一個體，都是自性，都是真心，悟了的時候就叫般若智慧，迷了的時候就叫情識。所以唯識這一宗講修行的目標是轉識成智，轉八識成四智；真轉過來了，那麼你一天到晚起心動念，一切的作為，全是普賢行，與十大願，願願都相應。那麼後面有幾句，它也說得很好。「大經云，一切法無生，一切法無滅，若能如是解，諸佛常現前。」它這個幾句是解釋如對目前來說的，也說得非常之好，那麼後面呢，我們還會討論到。如果沒有普賢法力，沒有深心信解，這個禮敬諸佛就做不到，所以禮敬諸佛，特別注重諸佛，這個是普賢行願。如果說禮敬如來，禮敬一尊佛，那個不是普賢行，所以普賢行差別就在此地。



普賢行是情與無情要平等地禮敬，這個才是普賢行的禮敬諸佛，所以它不是禮敬佛，是禮敬諸佛，諸佛是情與無情統統包括在裡面。所以不曉得這個意思，讀誦有什麼用處呢？沒用啊！明白這個道理，讀誦有用，讀誦提醒自己。所以古人有很多人拿這個作日課的，弘一大師，諸位都曉得，他的早晚課就是念普賢行願品，他把這個當作課誦本來念，時時刻刻提醒自己，我有沒有修普賢行，時時提起，時時念著，自自然然他就要修了。再看底下這一段，解釋「能禮」的「心相」。「悉以清淨身語意業，常修禮敬。」這一段經文裡面，你看字不多，可是意思也非常地圓滿。成佛的正因，必定是三業清淨，這個是成佛的正因。

用心去恭敬每一個眾生

用心去恭敬每一個眾生, 對眾生不要有分別心，要以平等心看待一切眾生，沒有平等心的話就會生起苦惱心，不要分別高下、大小、富有、貧賤，一律平等，這樣才能得到內心的和諧與快樂。


it is difficult, i need to practise it

When will Peace Come 911

When will Peace Come? Peace comes internally, not externally. Stop blaming external factors and practise internally

邪帥說法, 如恆河沙

要在誘惑中生存, 十分困難,
四處都是邪帥說法, 電視, 金錢, 女人, 食物, 無一不是邪帥說法

Amitabha Sutra Chinese Chanting

This is a MUST CHANT during death, very powerful

Happy Birthday To Me 7 days from Now

幸運是我

這首歌帶給了我很多的回憶, 我想起我的爸爸, 他己不在這個世界上, 我也想起我對自己做人的失敗, 無奈, 很難在這個世界上生存下去, 但又知道自己的幸運, 認識了彿法, 知道了人性的真相. 時間的消逝, 自己的過失不斷地重覆, 更加知道命運的害怕, 請留意以下的作品

My new buddhism blog

http://amitabha-buddhism.blogspot.com/

一切有為法，如夢幻泡影，如露亦如電，應作如是觀。(2)

我也不相信自己的改變. 我只想去找阿彌陀佛.念彿往生淨土.
一想到這裏, 什麼也可以放下, 只要在這裏符合彿法戒除貪, 瞋, 痂 慢, 那個人生計畫就符合彿法了

現在看到這個世界的人, 簡直是愚蠢. 包括以往的我. 假若我不知道六道輪迴的可怕, 我還會掉以輕心. 了解以後, 什麼世間的事物都很自然地放下

現在 看到美女, 沒有感覺, 看到金錢, 不想再太大追求, 太多錢財只會帶來災禍, 足夠生活就可以了. 有冇女朋友也算了, 如果可以一齊修行更好. 多一個人去淨土, 我己不想再玩樂, 以免再墜輪迴.

一切有為法，如夢幻泡影，如露亦如電，應作如是觀。

一切有為法，如夢幻泡影，如露亦如電，應作如是觀。

人是有慾望的，生來就想擁有什麼，當你擁有你會快樂，但失去時你就會痛苦；夢也是一樣啊，當你朝著夢想前進，你是滿足的，但是當有一天夢想破滅，巨大的絕望就會攫住你，不停地往下墜落。
　　可是這四句偈告訴我們，不要去想你現在擁有什麼，便放不開，因為總有一天都是會失去的，也不要去想你失去什麼，因為我們本來就不可能擁有什麼，今天你做了一個夢，夢中的你過的快樂極了，早上你醒來，發現自己又回到現實的世界中，又要面對辛苦的一天，人在夢醒時難免有一點失落感，但這還只是做夢而已，要是有一天你生命中真正重要的東西失去了呢？你的親人、朋友、愛，你還能把他當做一個結束的夢嗎？
　　人生的一切現象，就像夢幻般不真實，也像水中的泡泡，浮上水面就消失了，又像清晨的露珠、天空的閃電，現在看到了，下一刻就消失了。這個世界就好像無數個不同的『片刻』，而不是不變的永恆，我們應該從這個角度去認識世界，就會對世界有不同的體悟，也許本來令你痛苦的事，就不會痛苦了。
　　其實我覺得人活著，就不可能不痛苦，因為活著本身就是一件痛苦的事，人活著總有一天得面對別離，又有太多無可奈何的事. 我很希望我從夢中醒回來, 人生本來就是夢, 你試想想, 你發夢的時侯是否很入夢, 很真, 當你醒來的時候, 你會不會很執著那個夢, 人生如夢, 我們為什麼不能放下

佛說阿彌陀經

如是我聞﹐一時佛在舍衛國祇樹給孤獨園。與大比丘僧。千二百五十人俱。皆是大阿羅漢。眾所知識。長老舍利弗。摩訶目犍連。摩訶迦葉。摩訶迦旃延。摩訶俱絺羅。離婆多。周利槃陀伽。難陀。阿難陀。羅候羅。橋梵波提。賓頭廬頗羅墮。迦留陀夷。摩訶劫賓那。薄拘羅。阿耨樓馱。如是等諸大弟子。并諸菩薩摩訶薩。文殊師利法王子。阿逸多菩薩。乾陀訶提菩薩。常精進菩薩。與如是等諸大菩薩。及釋提桓因等。無量諸天大眾俱。

爾時佛告長老舍利弗。從是西方過十萬億佛土。有世界名曰極樂。其土有佛。號阿彌陀。今現在說法。舍利弗。彼土何故名為極樂。其國眾生。無有眾苦。但受諸樂。故名極樂。又舍利弗。極樂國土。七重欄楯。七重羅網。七重行樹。皆是四寶。周匝圍繞。是故彼國名為極樂。又舍利弗。極樂國土。有七寶池。八功德水。充滿其中。池底純以金沙布地。四邊階道。金．銀．琉璃．玻璃合成。上有樓閣。亦以金．銀．琉璃．玻璃．硨磲．赤珠．瑪瑙．而嚴飾之。池中蓮華大如車輪．青色．青光．黃色．黃光．赤色．赤光．白色．白光。微妙香潔。舍利弗。極樂國土。成就如是功德莊嚴。

又舍利弗。彼佛國土。常作天樂。黃金為地。晝夜六時。天雨曼陀羅華。其土眾生。常以清旦。各以衣械。盛眾妙華。供養他方十萬億佛。即以食時。還到本國。飯食經行。舍利弗。極樂國土。成就如是功德莊嚴。

復次舍利弗。彼國常有種種奇妙雜色之鳥。白鶴．孔雀．鸚鵡．舍利．迦陵頻伽．共命之鳥。是諸眾鳥。晝夜六時。出和雅音。其音演暢五根．五力．七菩提分．八聖道分．如是等法。其土眾生。聞是音已。皆悉念佛．念法．念僧。舍利弗。汝勿謂此鳥。實是罪報所生。所以者何。彼佛國土。無三惡道。舍利弗。其佛國土。尚無惡道之名。何況有實。是諸眾鳥。皆是阿彌陀佛。欲令法音宣流。變化所作。舍利弗。彼佛國土。微風吹動。諸寶行樹。及寶羅網。出微妙音。譬如百千種樂。同時俱作。聞是音者。自然皆生念佛．念法．念僧之心。舍利弗。其佛國土成就如是功德莊嚴。

舍利弗。於汝意云何。彼佛何故號阿彌陀。舍利弗。彼佛光明無量。照十方國。無所障礙。是故號為阿彌陀。又舍利弗。彼佛壽命。及其人民。無量無邊阿僧祇劫。故名阿彌陀。

舍利弗。阿彌陀佛。成佛已來於今十劫。又舍利弗。彼佛有無量無邊聲聞弟子。皆阿羅漢。非是算數之所能知。諸菩薩眾。亦復如是。舍利弗。彼佛國土。成就如是功德莊嚴。

又舍利弗。極樂國土。眾生生者。皆是阿鞞跋致。其中多有一生補處。其數甚多。非是算數所能知之。但可以無量無邊阿僧祇說。舍利弗。眾生聞者。應當發願。願生彼國。所以者何。得與如是諸上善人俱會一處。舍利弗。不可以少善根福德因緣。得生彼國。舍利弗。若有善男子．善女人。聞說阿彌陀佛。執持名號。若一日。若二日。若三日。若四日。若五日。若六日。若七日。一心不亂。其人臨命終時。阿彌陀佛。與諸聖眾。現在其前。是人終時。心不顛到。即得往生阿彌陀佛極樂佛土。舍利弗。我見是利。故說此言。若有眾生。聞是說者。應當發願。生彼國土。

舍利弗。如我今者。讚歎阿彌陀佛。不可思議功德之利。東方亦有阿處鞞佛。須彌相佛。大須彌佛。須彌光佛。妙音佛。如是等恒河沙數諸佛。各於其國。出廣長舌相。遍覆三千大千世界。說誠實言。汝等眾生。當信是稱讚不可思議功德一切諸佛所護念經。

舍利弗。南方世界。有日月燈佛。名聞光佛。大燄肩佛。須彌燈佛。無量精進佛。如是等恒河沙數諸佛。各於其國。出廣長舌相。遍覆三千大千世界。說誠實言。汝等眾生。當信是稱讚不可思議功德一切諸佛所護念經。

舍利弗。西方世界。有無量壽佛。無量相佛。無量幢佛。大光佛。大明佛。寶相佛。淨光佛。如是等恒河沙數諸佛。各於其國。出廣長舌相。遍覆三千大千世界。說誠實言。汝等眾生。當信是稱讚不可思議功德一切諸佛所護念經。

舍利弗。北方世界。有燄肩佛。最勝音佛。難沮佛。日生佛。網明佛。如是等恒河沙數諸佛。各於其國。出廣長舌相。遍覆三千大千世界。說誠實言。汝等眾生。當信是稱讚不可思議功德一切諸佛所護念經。

舍利弗。下方世界。有師子佛。名聞佛。名光佛。達摩佛。法幢佛。持法佛。如是等恒河沙數諸佛。各於其國。出廣長舌相。遍覆三千大千世界。說誠實言。汝等眾生。當信是稱讚不可思議功德一切諸佛所護念經。

舍利弗。上方世界。有梵音佛。宿王佛。香上佛。香光佛。大燄肩佛。雜色寶華嚴身佛。娑羅樹王佛。寶華德佛。見一切義佛。如須彌山佛。如是等恒河沙數諸佛。各於其國。出廣長舌相。遍覆三千大千世界。說誠實言。汝等眾生。當信是稱讚不可思議功德一切諸佛所護念經。

舍利弗。於汝意云何。何故名為一切諸佛所護念經。舍利弗。若有善男子．善女人。聞是經受持者。及聞諸佛名者。是諸善男子．善女人。皆為一切諸佛之所護念。皆得不退轉於阿耨多羅三藐三菩提。是故舍利弗。汝等皆當信受我語。及諸佛所說。

舍利弗。若有人已發願。今發願。當發願。欲生阿彌陀佛國者。是諸人等。皆得不退轉於阿耨多羅三藐三菩提。於彼國土。若已生。若今生。若當生。是故舍利弗。諸善男子．善女人。若有信者。應當發願。生彼國土。

舍利弗。如我今者。稱讚諸佛不可思議功德。彼諸佛等亦讚我不可思議功德。而作是言。釋迦牟尼佛能為甚難希有之事。能於娑婆國土。五濁惡世。劫濁．見濁．煩惱濁．眾生濁．命濁中。得阿耨多羅三藐三菩提。為諸眾生。說是一切世間難信之法。

舍利弗。當知我於五濁惡世。行此難事。得阿耨多羅三藐三菩提。為一切世間說此難信之法。是為甚難。佛說此經已。舍利弗。及諸比丘。一切世間天人阿修羅等。聞佛所說。歡喜信受。作禮而去。

拔一切業障根本。得生淨土陀羅尼 (往生淨土神咒或往生咒)

南摩阿彌多婆夜。哆他伽多夜。哆地夜他。阿彌利都婆毗。阿彌利哆。悉耽婆毗。阿彌利哆。毗伽蘭帝。阿彌利哆。毗伽蘭哆。伽彌膩。伽伽那。枳多伽利。娑婆訶。

誦這咒者阿彌陀佛常住其頂。命終之後任運往生

念佛

我要念佛了, 六道的可怕
我很幸運得人生, 可惜我不懂珍惜.
其實人生可以是一個業報, 只是我們沒有留意, 這個世界太亂了, 貪心, 自私
多留一天, 很容易做罪業, 去了地獄是一線之差, 再搞輪迴也是浪費時間

我不想在留戀這個地方, 西方極樂世界很好. 但是我一定要放下才能去到, 我也質疑我去到的機會有幾大, 但如我不去, 我不知要等少次生死才去.

我的性格根本不能在這世界生存, 心不定, 看了好看的東西心也帶走了, 我要用重新的眼光來生存, 反正世界上一切的東西也帶不走, 只有自己的罪業能帶走, 何必把這四周的事物給迷住了

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I love Heavy Metal

This is the type of music I like, not pop

Old stuff

Someone asks me to take the camera again. I like photography when I was 12 to 14, I had a manual camera (no electrical parts inside except the light meter),

Nowadays, people took digital pictures with a digital camera, and modify within photoshop. I still prefer using film and manual camera, more fun...

I am also watching an old TVB drama, took in 90s era, it was good, but people think it is too old...

Well.. if it is good, who cares whether it is new or old.

Proves to me that people like catching up new stuff without enjoying the old stuff, not a good thing...

People changing job

The people around me keep changing job, even my new company, people left every week. It only has less than 30 people..

New Pay rise?
Better career?

Well, money is important, but it cannot bring into coffin, so I prefer balance between money and career interest.

海阔天空

我玩結他, 很少人去懂欣賞, 或會有被人嘲笑的感覺
我希望我这一生可以的話, 不羁放纵爱自由
當我玩結他的時候, 我彷彿身邊擁有了一切, 但與世界好像有了隔膜, 起了圍牆


今天我寒夜里看雪飘过
怀著冷却了的心窝飘远方
风雨里追赶
雾里分不清影踪
天空海阔你与我
可会变(谁没在变)

多少次迎著冷眼与嘲笑
从没有放弃过心中的理想
一刹那恍惚
若有所失的感觉
不知不觉已变淡
心里爱(谁明白我)

原谅我这一生不羁放纵爱自由
也会怕有一天会跌倒
被弃了理想谁人都可以
那会怕有一天只你共我

仍然自由自我
永远高唱我歌
走遍千里

只想將結他緊抱訴出辛酸

我又見到我不想見到的事, 很無奈, 很孤獨.

我對愛情己經沒有太大感覺. 身邊漸覺壓力, 但又不想一個人

只好將緊抱結他緊抱訴出辛酸

誰來愛我

Stupid

I think many people treat me as a stupid, teasing me at all times.. Just happen since high school, never stops..

I have my own feeling, sometimes I just want ppl to consider my feeling... I now express my feeling via my guitar.

My Place

現在的感受

一個開始又一個結束, 短短的兩天發生了很多很麻煩的事, 我又要重新找新的flatmate, 一個屬於我的家, 一個很幸福的家, 又要結束了.

以前的家, 沒有家的感覺, 大家各自各.

我發了個夢, 給了我很不安祥的感覺, 想不到真的要發生了, 我無可選擇, 只可見步行步.

這對很多人可能是一件小事, 但我見到了無常的可怕, 一個法師的格言, 面對他, 解決他, 放下他

另外, 我又病了

再另外, 我的租金懷疑被人私吞了, 又要追數,

我現在正在找工作, 真是很忙.

我今年真是很黑, 很多不如意的事發生了

New flatmate

Very bad temper, but got a warm heart,
can cook well, easy going, always keep place clean !!

I have too much bbq in easter long weekend, got cold & flu

舊日的足跡

每一個人都有一個過去, 過去的故鄉, 過去的喜與哀樂
這首作品是描述一個人很久没有回家, 看到每一張臉的不同感受

這首作品是約在1985年寫的, 我很喜歡後段的結他, 很有感情, 我現在正在練習這段結他

New life

I just come back from HK and Japan, many things have been changed

New Home
New flatmate
New glasses
New clothes
New guitar
New face - more handsome now
New TV

New journey

Stress out

I am too tired recently (not physical, but pyschological)
due to

1. Too much work in the office (got 6 hands at a time, and every issue is top priority)
2. Flatmate moving out (no good bye hug)
3. Busted for illegal parking
4. ATO penalty
5. Finding a new place within a short period of time
6. Packing up
7. Not happy about my weakness in personality

I am glad that I can handle most of these things properly, but my emotional just gone crazy. I keep reminding myself, forget about the emotion, just do it, and I have done it, because I don't have a choice...

but just too tired, and I am a man, supposed to be strong. and I was behaving tough already... i just want to escape now and cry... yeah, i am a boy, should not cry

Tonight is the first night I spend time alone, very afraid, very tired, i want her to stay with me.. impossible anymore, but i got a new guy as a new flatmate soon, not bad..

I am exploding now like a bomb.

Admiral

I feel really stressed in my life recently.
1. My perception to myself, a sponge
2. Friend's perception to myself
3. My way of viewing things changes a lot

My biggest lesson in this year is learning how to admire things and people?
1. To admire one person took a long time. As you know, I lived with someone before, I can honestly tell you sometimes the other side do a lot of things that piss you off, but no matter how bad the other side is, I still accept it. I am a sponge, you can squeeze the sponge and it still backs to normal. Why? coze I start to admire..

I won't admire one person when I saw him/her, after some time, I will calm down and start to look at the advantage of this person... this is a very valuable lesson to me, by learning that, i almost rarely angry with anyone

2. I like HK band beyond, not only like, but also admire. Although sometimes i don't like their songs, but i admire their talent and most importantly, the tears behind. When I listen to their song, I don't just listen. If you don't know the background and all the stuff involved, it is just waste of money.

3. Someone said I am immature,i admit to some extent I am, but I also want to say no one is mature unless he/she is god or buddha. I am still finding someone who admires me @ a friend or a partner........ I have to break this door

4. I would like to ask anyone who read this blog HAVE U EVER ADMIRE THE PEOPLE SURROUNDING YOU? if not, start it today... but people will ask "why do i need to admire him/her, then why do you treat him/her as a friend then? call him/her when you are boring, call him/her when you need help"...I can tell you, almost everyone of my friend, i will admire him/her. This should be the way of treating people... If anyone has ever said that I am immature, then at least please do this before saying this to me

Please admire this song, it is about how to appreciate.

合久必分

Beyond, a HK band which I like since I was young
After 22 years, dismiss in 2005

Me, today is a remarkable day for me, i also experience 合久必分 after 9 months. How do you think about 合久必分

I know nothing is permanent, but I really really feel shit

How healthy are you

Click here to check

Check the numbers yourself.. For woman, the number is just a little bit less, don't think you are female and you should be far less than men, it is wrong

Push up for Men in 1 min (Age group)
20-29 30-39 40-49 50-59 60+

Superior
62 52 40 39 28
Excellent
47 39 30 25 23
Good
37 30 24 19 18
Fair
29 24 18 13 10
Poor
22 17 11 9 6
Very poor
13 9 5 3 2

I belong to Fair...I remember when I was 13, i can do 27 push up as well and is already quite strong in the class.. so if I want to swim fast, I have to become stronger

Number of sit-ups in 1 min
Men (Age group)
20 20-29 30-39 40-49 50-59 60+
Superior
62 55 51 47 43 39
Excellent
51 47 43 39 35 30
Good
47 42 39 34 28 22
Fair
41 38 35 29 24 19
Poor
36 33 30 24 19 15
Very Poor
27 27 23 17 12 7

I belonged to Poor. seems that I have to practise more

Body Mass Index
Preparation: Wearing minimal clothing, measure your body weight. Measure your height without shoes.
Procedure: Check for your BMI on this chart or multiply your weight in pounds by 703. (For example, if you weigh 149 pounds, multiply 149 x 703 to get 104,747.)
Multiply your height in inches by your height in inches.
(If you are 65 inches tall, multiply 65 x 65 to get 4,225.)
Divide the first answer by the second answer to get your Body Mass Index. (104,747 divided by 4,225 is 24.8.)
Scoring: Less than 19 Underweight
19 - 25 Normal weight
25 - 29.99 Overweight
30 or higher Obese

I score 20, normal weight

happy new year

My resolution
1. Break 35 seconds in 50M freestyle in swimming, and swim 100M butterfly
2. Find a girl friend
3. Change job and increase 10K more for salary, I am underpaid for now
4. Change my character so that people admire me
5. Become more muscular
6. Continue to study Japanese
7. Get more Microsoft IT Certifications

I listen to a HK band "Beyond" recently, I really love Ka Kui's voice. If he had not died, what would have happened.. He died when I was 13. Compared to today's music in HK, HK music is really full of shit now, in karaoke, almost every song is love song, lack of personal style

I love Beyond's song because
1. Self Composed, self played and self sing
2. Ka Kui's voice
3. Ka Kui can express his own real feeling in his song (Not many people can do this)
4. You can read Ka Kui's personality in his songs (You almost cannot find this in other singers in HK)
5. Songs related to the world, not only love
6. Rock and roll feel

When I was 13, I don't really know how to admire his songs, now, I can see very deep inside his songs

Below is the Beyond's Japanese MV, unfortunately, he died in Japan as well


今の僕は前よりずっと成熟になってきた。グローリアのこと私の記憶を深く残ってしまった、私もその後変わってきた、でも、その先の道どうだろ？遥かなる夢か？

Beyond - 遥かなる夢



遠く 遥かな歌が
たえまなく聞こえてくる
微笑みを讃えるように
ときに優しく強く「Don't be afraid」

思い悩み傷きずつき
眠れない夜もあった
信じあい 肩を支えて
励ましあったあの日「Don't worry friend」

＊終わりのない旅の途中で
振り向けば君がいる
人は皆ひとりきりじゃ
生きてゆけないから

広い大地の上に
寝転んで見あげた空
果てしない銀河の流れ
いつもこの地球つつむ「Don't be afraid」

たとえ街は荒んでいっても
夢をみる力が
※この胸に希望の鐘
明日も鳴らすだろう

また新しい 物語を生きるよ

Another song

臨行 - 郭富城

臨行捨不得你走　臨行捨不得放手　原諒我這刻人退後
臨行不想講太多　臨行只想哼句歌　來念記這刻一起走過
如果開心講你知　如何感激講你知　尋夢去結果成故事
難忘真心的靠倚　難忘刻骨的句子　能令我痛哭只此一次
孤單旅程悠然繼續行　孤單時候念著你　孤單時候默念這個晚上
伴著你　講心事　如何不捨都要走　如何不捨都放手能遇上片刻等於擁有

Every word touches me now

Karaoke Night

Last night, I had karaoke with 10+ people. I was enjoyed. People drunk (not me). Due to strong skin allergy, I cannot touch alcohol anymore or any liquid yeast product..I was punished to drink water as handicap and cannot go to toilet for 2 hours, but my maximum capacity is 2 Liters of water.. and......i try to sniff into the toilet, without success......

but I found it good because I can talk to people that I don't always talk before, and after stress in work, this is a place to relax as well

Swimming again - Hoping to break personal record again

When I was young at 11, I swim a lot, taught and trained by professional...My best stroke are freestyle and breaststroke. I also learn how to dive start beaufully. I was trained for compeition...

However, after my Dad's death, I have stopped training, and 16 years later, which is 27 years old. I vow to train up again. I know I am too old for this training, but I still want to have some personal achivement.

My best lap time for 50M freestyle when I was 13 was 44 seconds..

Now 16 years from now, my lap time recorded yesterday was 38 seconds.. however.. I was not really in optimum condition... If I keep training with 3 months, my lap time will definitely to 35 seconds or below for sure... That is also my personal goal..

From now, I will do cardio and weight training as well

Sick and work

I was sick in these two days, got flu due to sudden change of weather. Normally, I just take sick leave, but if I take sick leave, I cannot finish the work on time and my team will f**k with the client, so I continue to work until to finish off... One team member asked to me do urgent stuff. I told her that I was sick, but she keep begging me, so as a responsible person, I work for her..

Oh God, how come I become so responsible. In the past, I just ignore it, probably I just changed myself without even notice it..

Speaking to my colleage, he told me that his sister is getting married, and he has to work in weekend, and he cannot finish work before certain day, the company may get sued...

My mind was so blank and dizzy, and I forgot to bring my mobile phone from office to home, forgot to bring umbrella before I left, cannot concentrate when talking to client............this is clearly an indication of body of requesting more rest

but every job is the same, especially with accountant, if you are sick, your desk will pile up..........

I have learned another lesson, people are so kind to me when I am sick, especially in the office, and my friends as well... On Buddhist monk said "it is good that you are sick, then you will learn how people take care of you"

皮蛋瘦肉粥

CLICK HERE



I vow to learn this

煮粥用料：瘦肉1块（猪腱肉最好），皮蛋2个（无铅皮蛋，一则健康些，二则石灰味没那么大），姜1块，水足量，油盐适量

要煮出一锅绵香好味的皮蛋咸瘦肉粥，要诀如下：

1，挑米：煮粥用的米最好用东北大米，就是圆圆短短的珍珠米，煮出的粥特别绵软；

2，煮粥的米要预先腌：约半碗米淘洗干净后，要用2汤匙的油、1个半茶匙的盐和少许水（2茶匙）拌匀，腌至少半小时，放心，虽然用了很多油，但是油会在煮粥的过程中挥发，令米绵烂，所以并不油腻的；

3，煮粥的肉要先用沸水煮煮去腥，或腌成咸肉：煮粥用瘦肉或腌的咸瘦肉，不必太考究是猪的哪一块肉，总之要保持一整块肉块不要切开（我一般用大约巴掌大，1－2厘米厚一块猪肉，如果条件许可，用猪腱肉更好味）。如果用瘦肉煮粥，那么要先用沸水把瘦肉略略煮煮，然后洗净；如果喜欢用腌的咸猪肉煮粥，那么要提前一天腌咸猪肉，方法如下：猪肉一块，冲洗干净，抹干，撒2－3茶匙盐，均匀涂抹在肉上，放冰箱下格（就是不会冻成冰的保鲜格）腌12小时或更长时间才可以入味；

4，煮粥的水要充分沸腾才下材料：大汤锅中放很多水，煮沸，才放材料。先下肉块、姜片，火不要关小，肉块到了沸水中，外面的部分遇热而熟硬，封住了里面的肉汁，这样肉煮了粥后也不难吃，然后待水再次沸腾时下腌好的米和一个切碎的皮蛋，而这第一个皮蛋切碎下粥与米同煮，皮蛋会融化，融入粥的味道中。

5，先大火，后小火，火候要足：水沸了，下了材料后，先大火煮20分钟，然后再转小火煮1个半小时，火候足，粥就绵软入味而且容易消化；

6，粥的质感处理：在转小火煮了1个半小时后，把第二个皮蛋也切碎，同时把煮在粥中的瘦肉捞出来，用筷子扒拉，撕成丝丝状，跟第二个皮蛋一起放回粥中，同煮最后半小时，然后关火。第二个皮蛋在关火前半小时加入粥中，半小时可将第二个皮蛋煮得既没石灰味，同时又变软滑，吃粥时也能吃到有皮蛋，而肉因为是水沸时下的，还保持了一定鲜味，撕成丝后放回粥中，特别好吃。

这样煮出来的粥不必下盐，好味，而且下火，容易消化。如果粥有点粘底，请千万不要用勺子扒拉锅底的粘皮，要不粥会有糊味，我们通常会放一个轻的小调羹在锅底与粥同煮，水沸腾过程中，小调羹也被带动，可以防止粥煮粘底。

What is your personality

Someone asks me about the personality thing on one day.

The sample test is Here

This sample test is far from accurate because the full test will take a long time to complete, but it is a good reflection to look upon yourself.

I have learned this thing since I was 19 and I have been really into it. I were unhappy for some reasons when I was 19 and I realised because my ego is not relating to the world properly. I can give you some insights of some personality types. These insights are not copied from anywhere else, it is my own words. Try to find out which out matches you most. There are 9 types of basic personalities, 27 variants. IF you need reference, please click the link at the bottom

Type 4 THE INDIVIDUALIST
- Some people has put themselves in too much imaginations , they try to create their own world. These people, when they are calm and stable, they are very creative and artistics, however, when they have stress or problems, they try to put their imaginations into destructive behavior. For example, in a bad relationship, they will have a lot imagination of how the relationship should be, but the imagainations are not practical and reasonable at all.

Type 2 Helper
- Some people is defending their fear of lonliness and by helping other people (i am this type), their ego can be calmed down by the people they wanna help. (type 2). They try to seek values by going outside instead of seeking inside. When they are calm, they are really helpful and fulfil the unconditional love. When they are stressed, they will ask for return when they help.

Type 8 Challenger
- Some people like to control the others (type 8), I am not familiarse with this type, but these people can be described as bossy sometimes.

Type 9 Peacemaker
- Some people like to stay away from the world (type 9), pissing people off because they are too "peaceful" and ignoring things. Good things are they always stay calm, but on the bad side is that they sometimes ignore the world too much, and give a people of "not going forward" feeling

Type 3 The Archiever
- Some people like to show off their fame (like the whole United States), this is type 3. No need to say, I think everybody understands what USA is behaved, trying to polish their "brand", but deep inside is really shit..but when these people are healthy, they are very productive and pragmatic

Type 1 THE REFORMER
- Some people is rigid about right and wrong and emphasis on standard and procedure (type 1), however, they try to find a decent standard and assume that the standard is correct. Good things are that they are productive and realiable because they follow the procedure. Bad side is that they have problems in accepting the other "non-standard" procedures even though the "non standard procedures" are the best solution.

Type 7 Entertainer
- Some people cannot stay away from excitment, getting bored easily, always find something to do (type 7), in chinese, we called it "3 minute heat up", new things never pass 3 minutes. Commitment is always a problem because their commitment is based on their level of excitment. If their commitment cannot give them excitment anymore, they will just ignore the commitment. (my flamate is this type as well). When they are calm, they give people a "joyful feeling"

Type 6 Loyer
- Some people defend themselves too much, asking for their own space, and they spend enegy in finding themselves what is stable and safe. (type 6). They are loyal to the place or person that can give them a secure environment. They have a very clear line definding what is enemy and friend. They have a fear of other people "invading their territory" (my flamate also is heavy on this type). When these people are calm, they can show their leadership power and always emphasise trust worthly relationship. They will not betray people easily that are close friends... They value people that they trust.

Type 5 Investigator
- Some people is very analytical, type 5. It can be described as problem solver. I am not familiar with this type as well..

Finding out one's personality is a very difficult task. The personality is inherent from birth. The core ego and fear will remain there. However, education, childhood and all other factors after birth can give a transformation to the personality. In order to find out one's personality, I have to distinguish what actions are inherent, and what actions are not. I have to observe how they handle themselves, relationship, friends, family and career. A person keep ignoring things does not mean they are type 9... By observing how they handle their stuff, then you can find out their basic fear that is deep inside in themselves, especially when they are anxious. Anxiety will directly tell the basic fear in most cases..As such, a personality can be determined... I also have to distinguish which one is their "Main" personality. One person always exhibit 9 persaonlities all the time, but sometimes the main personality is "masked" because of education, society and parents. These factors can transform the basic personality so much that it is very hard to determine..These people may have higher awareness of their action in their life.

I have already found out several of my close friends' personality. I can definitely tell you that I "handle" them very different..

Awareness of oneself is a key factor here. Even for me, I am not good in awareness

Reference is HERE

Life back to Normal

After a tense relationship between my flatmate and me, she finally spoke up and we solved a lot of misunderstanding.

This is a valuable lesson for me and her. We both got mistakes and we are both right and we are both wrong.

This also teaches me how she works.. For those who don't know enneagram, it is a very accurate personality guidelines, it helps me a lot, transforming my personality so that I can deal with people easily. It corrects my altitute of how to relate myself to this world

After a long observation, she should belong to
Type Seven 7 - Level 5

I belong to Type 2 - Level 5
I am aware of my weakness, but sometimes just out of control, especially dealing with her (Type 7) person. I now understand how type 7 deals with stress.. It is a very valuable lesson for me.

Anyway, I am not interested in blaming who is right and who is wrong, I am more interested in learn a lesson from the past.. One of my new year resolution is to completely change myself so that people will start to admire me.. This is my commitment, I have already shown this altitute in my job. A complete refreshed Ben

I have finally achieved my new year resolution tonight, I can eat the food she cooked. 100 times thank you

I will go back to Hk this easter and stay in Japan for one week.

Here I want you to listen this song as a present

很愛很愛你

地球上兩個人, 能相遇不容易, 做不成你的情人我仍感激.
如果我退回到好朋友的位置,你也就不再需要為難成這樣子

Flatmate is moving out

After living together for more than half a year, we seperate. I don't like it since I think I lost something important..

I have to be lonely in the house again, not getting used to it at all..

I have tried my best to convince her to stay, but not looking good..

Here is the song that she like, I also like it, I hope after she listens to this song, she can stay


郭富城 - 夢見妳回來



夢見妳回來
作詞：潘源良　作曲：Shinji Tanimura　編曲：黃尚偉

夢見了　忘記了　人海中分開　我耳邊　聽到妳話　妳回來
夢見妳　還愛我　從來無被替代　這世間　充滿美麗的色彩
彷彿知道　情還在　願再一起
不分開　別緊張　別心急　沉睡兩眼　別趕快張開
Dreams come true　妳的香氣又蕩來
就像我　夢魂期待　Dreams come true　重逢　但願就是最愛
夢見妳　尋到妳　誰還想分開　愛過的一切片段　再重來
沒有妳　卻還愛妳　如果不應該　我永遠躲到　夢境內存在
從不知道　情還在　夢裡再次　我等待
別緊張　別心急　矇矓雙眼　要在歡笑裡張開

新年明けましておめでとうございます

今年もよろしく。
I watched fireworks in my friends' place at the top floor of the ceiling, very beautiful.

I have something not worked out recently and really depressed, but anyway, new year new beginning

i am keen to change myself so that the people around me can learn more about me. I have to be strong, too weak so far. Be a strong guy

失敗のは当たり前、成功したのは男まえ。物事は試してみればどうかな？