Deep depression

When I am about to die, that sudden moment, just made me scary, I know what I am doing is not right.. I know the correct path, but I dun have courage to walk..

I did want to commit suicide, but knowing that it is useless to solve problem, I dun know why I still have that intention to do it..

I am depressed to a level where I have headache before sleeping, my mind is out of control...

Smiling and depression

It is me again, haven't touched this blog for ages. Today, I take my courage to start writing something about it..

Buddhism gave me a lot of positive energy so far, However, I was so depressed recently, I always convince myself not be be derpressed and smile, but whenever I thought I am fine. In fact, I was not fine, depression just get worse and worse one day until someone remind me..

To be blunt, I dun even know why I depress, I should be smiling at all times..

Watching TV series, just triggering what my mind is thinking, may be it is a mirror for myself.. I just going mad again........Why should I depress..I dun even know

I lost too many things already, I dun really lost my smile

I have fallen into a relationship that does not have a result..


I just want to give up myself and isolate for a while..