Deep depression

When I am about to die, that sudden moment, just made me scary, I know what I am doing is not right.. I know the correct path, but I dun have courage to walk..

I did want to commit suicide, but knowing that it is useless to solve problem, I dun know why I still have that intention to do it..

I am depressed to a level where I have headache before sleeping, my mind is out of control...